In Search Of Inner Voice
I am here after a long time. I have been trying to do things. I was busy in search of myself. I was busy with college, presentations and exams. I was busy in my novel writing. I was very busy. I sometimes think that, busyness is somewhat the thing that we should have, but in moderation. Not more, not very less but in moderation.
I lived a stressful four months of my life. I was writing, reading, studying, giving exams. Giving college presentations. One word to sum it all up, is HUSTLE. I didn't really hustle that hard, but that was kind of really painful. Doing all the stuff. Finally novel’s first draft finished, presentations finished, exams ended, and I continued with my editing of novel. The first draft is done. the second draft is about to get finished. The only work left here is to finish this draft and check for further revisions. My results came, and I failed in just one subject, Maths. I had to give Math exam again in October so I have to prepare for it. So, these upcoming months are also going to be, hectic, Study- as I have just entered in Second year of my course, then Math re-exam, then publishing.
I never thought I would get this much busy in my life. Two years ago, I realized that my passion is writing and I should give it a try. So, I started, Blogging. Writing. Publishing. Things started to happen one after another. Exams came, I gave exams. Stopped blogging and writing, in order to pass in 12th exams. I published my first novel. I went into writer’s block and depression. I joined college. I came out of depression and writer’s block and started writing. I wrote another novel that is about to be published. I stopped my blogging on another website completely. I made new friends and forgot old friends. I experienced failing in exam after ninth standard. I have made some important decisions in my life. Finally, I am getting back on track I feel happy for it.
So, it is somewhere true that, Happiness comes at a price. A price that anyone willing must me ready to pay. I am busy, but working on my dreams and following my passion, I am happy but the price I am paying is busyness. A HUSTLE to get good marks, get nice grades and get a nice job. Hustle never ends…by chasing life’s unnecessary compulsions and not following your passion, somewhere you loose yourself. You loose your inner voice.
Find that inner voice, that’s special…NEVER LOOSE IT…